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Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Seven years in Tibet

I suppose the people who have never been to Tibet will not profoundly understand this movie. "Seven years in Tibet" --Brad Pitt stars in the soaring adventure and incredible true story of an Austrian prisoner of war who is transformed by his friendship with the young 14th Dalai Lama.

It is a forbidden movie in China. After I watched it, I think it just states the facts. Like the cultural revolution in the whole China, Tibet, a place where have haunted around 14 centuries' religious influence, did suffer even more than everywhere inside China. During my trip to Tibet, I was told that only the Potala palace has been preserved well due to special orders from Prime minister Zhou Enlai. Most of the temples have been destroied.

It should have been a very hard period of China history, as I already know by parents' tales: for Tibet people it should have been even harder. Specially when we consider that buddism belief lies in the blood of Tibetans. Visiting Tibet, and watching the movie after I have met the people there, had a huge impact on me as well. The young chinese like me, more than 95%, at least, are non-religious. Often we find the emptiness affording life without any belief. More and more people choose to just adore the power of money.

If I have to choose between the buddism and money, I prefer a buddism which purifies people's mind and gives more sense to life.

Here is the link of some photos I have taken in Tibet. http://photo.163.com/openalbum.php?username=gattomatto&_dir=%2F3316984

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Tuesday, August 10, 2004
一点点独白

－上海在我于７月15日从香港返沪后就持续高温，下过唯一一场大雨

今天按道理是发工资日，我却做在必胜客南京路店（黄河路口）开始写下自己多年不写的日记。这段时间来，告诉过自己很多次总得写点什么下来。包括自己这一生此次最大的挫折，包括游历了超过20个国家的点点滴滴。虽说只是短短５年之间的事，有些记忆已经开始有些模糊不清了。

５月24日(2004), 应该是一个值得纪念的惨痛的日子。事情发生的那么突然几乎没有一点征兆。是自己太自信了，还是涉世未深？竟然一点防备也没有。从被赶出公司到回公司拿东西，从第一封律师函到第一次开庭，有经历了许多么有过的第一次。虽说自己一向是敢于尝新，巴不得把天下的第一次统统尝尽，这一次我却摔的太重。不愿细数孰是孰非，只觉得恍然一梦。其实，仲裁也好，诉讼也好，实在是很痛苦的过程。得一次次撕开伤口，找出证据，证明这处伤口是某某刺的，那处是某某洒的盐。人性的丑恶，那么彻底的展现在眼前，没有丝毫的伪装。一下子的措手不及将许多幻想打得粉碎。

两个月，就在这时而愤怒，时而悲伤，得失中转瞬即逝。对将来自己又是非常的迷惑，无法理清自己的思绪，何去何从，无从选择。也许我需要做的就是停下来，让时间将伤痕愈合。

时间会是愈合任何伤痛的最好良药。:-)